Isaiah 43:19
My beautiful friend shared this verse with me. She created a lovely box for me and in it she
has pretty cards with verses nicely scribed.
Regularly she sneaks a couple more cards to me. This one arrived yesterday via delivery by
her husband. I couldn’t share this verse
without also mentioning how I am so blessed with treasured friendship.
This verse is meaningful to me as I am getting so very
tired. Even now as I want to write lovely prose, my words just seem
clunky. So be it. I will not worry about style here, so I can
still share a few moments and pieces of my life in the past week. Saturday I
felt like I barely made it through the day.
I was so glad when bedtime (both the kids’s and mine!) rolled around and
I could sleep away the awfulness of the babies crying and the exhaustion that I
felt. It’s still a bit of a learning
game around our family to figure out what works for making life manageable on
days when we don’t have our nanny or Ryan’s mom around. So the promise of the above verse of
refreshment of “streams in the wasteland” is so very satisfying. It is hard to spend less and less time
helping around home and playing with the kids.
It is hard to feel like my days are so short because they end so
early. It is hard to feel like I’m back
when the twins were wee-little and I couldn’t even think of going out in the
evening. (Now I am making some
plans, and hoping daytime rest will afford me the energy to enjoy them….).
Sunday I spoke with my mom.
She asked how things were going.
Her response was so perfect. I
simply shared that Saturday was awful around our house. As she inquired more, she replied “so your
symptoms or side effects aren’t getting worse?”
No, indeed family life has it’s challenges as I get more tired (and the
twins are ever so demanding); but, overall I am still doing really very
good. Sometimes, I get a touch of mild
headache, but nothing noteworthy. My
vision is a bit off, but if I wear glasses instead of contacts it doesn’t
bother me. Today I was a bit nauseous
after getting up with the kids (which I wanted to do….amazing that a couple
days of not getting up with them and I actually want to get up at 6:30 !.....Thank you Garrett for sleeping past 5:30 !) and then driving to and from treatment. I will just have to keep preparing to do even
less and less over the next couple weeks. My fatigue is expected to be at its
max 2 weeks after treatment is finished.
Thanksgiving and Praises:
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Only 4 more treatments left!!!!!
(it’s a countdown!!!)
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Being offered a beautiful place to
retreat to weekly! I’m so grateful. If
you think to pray for me Thursdays, this will be my “retreat” day to recharge
and hopefully pen some meaningful words.
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All the people praying, the
messages keep trickling in and I am so grateful for all the love and support we
have been shown.
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The food that has restocked our
freezer yet again! Thank you!
Requests for prayer:
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When I get tired, as I am these
days, it is more work to keep positive.
Pray for encouragement as the fatigue keeps rolling in.
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Figuring family dynamics with my
decreased energy, but also energy that is somewhat unpredictable from day to
day (prayer for Ryan as he carries much more of the parenting and household
load).
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